Hey y’all, just trying out Gutenberg. I think this is the most drastic change I’ve ever seen in the WordPress editor so far. Anyway, I just wanted to write about something I miss.
Don’t we miss how we used blogs before, just writing our unfiltered thoughts without the fear of being discovered by friends or worse, by potential employers through Google search? Well, I thought I missed it so I think it will also help my sanity (#adulting) to write down all the positive things that happen daily.
It has been 3 months since we moved and with the Internet finally installed you can say we’re finally settled.
Whew, Munich. Probably the first big struggle we had in our married life so far. My move to India was so relaxed, probably because one of us lived there and our countries are very similar. Where we come from, as long as you have the cash (basically anyone who has a job above the minimum wage) you can do anything possible with it. But boy, Munich doesn’t play around, you gotta be more than that. Everyone can get the cash, you have to be way creative to stand out.
Obviously, I’m talking about the desperate housing situation.
The past 2 years were the most eventful my life had been so far.
The last time I wrote here, I recently made the biggest leap of faith. At least I thought that was the biggest I can do ever. Little did I know that I will be taking more, infinitely chasing until I get used to a life of being uncomfortable.
A few months before the last post I was too comfortable for my own good. I was stuck in an office job for almost 3 years doing nothing that I feel will make sense for me in the future. I hated it everyday but for some reason I couldn’t leave. I was very active and extremely passionate volunteering for a non-profit, I thought that if I will leave that job I couldn’t volunteer anymore. My mother was worried about what was I doing in my life, spending time and energy volunteering instead of fixing my career path.
One day I just got an opportunity for a career switch and thought of jumping blindly into it. If you look at it won’t directly help with my career, it won’t pay good either and for sure I will exhausted AF. But I know that time that I want to be there, so I shut my brain and took the leap. One jump came after another, and the biggest one, which until now I can say is the biggest one that will take time for any person to comprehend: I decided to get married AND leave my home country for that person. We’re from a different race of Asian family which has their own prejudice towards other races and puts a lot of weight on the idea of marriage. And we wanted that to be settled in 7 months, which we actually did.
Now I’ve lived in another country for a year, and in 2 weeks we will be moving to a new one. Who said getting married is just about settling, buying a house, getting kids and saving for retirement? Life is short. Don’t make it shorter.
Since then, I accepted that things can magically fall into place. The only thing that you need to do is take a leap of faith. So many things happened in the past 2 years, that I realized the 3 years I spent listening to my own demons and making excuses not to leave my job was a huge waste of time. It’s sad when that dawns upon you, however, with the chase I did in the past 2 years, I can tell my pessimistic self that it will be easy to make up for it anyway.
I first attended a Mozilla All-hands workweek in 2014 when it happened in Portland. I attended as part of the newly-formed FSA E-board who has been working so hard during the past months in revamping the program led by the amazing Community Manager that we had. FSA is the first (and so far the only) area at Mozilla that I have been a core contributor of in a global level, so I was so excited to meet the people I have been working so closely for the first time. I led the revamp of the Firefox Clubs and I take pride on the sleepless nights I spent working on the new process and training materials. I was ready to rock in Portland.
But it was the first workweek I attended. Less idealism and more serious business, so for the first time ever I was so stressed in a Mozilla event. Each day I had been learning what was really happening inside the organization, mostly cool stuff but sadly, it isn’t the case for the program I am involved with. Portland weather continued to be gloomy and the clouds were getting heavier as I am getting filled with confusion and doubt. It was my first time to be upset about and started questioning how well are we really doing in taking care of volunteers in Mozilla.
Now, what happened? Simple. Apparently there is a difference on how we value this program between us, the volunteer team running it and the team managing it. We all went to Portland with a goal to think about how we can improve the experience of Mozilla’s young volunteers but too bad, we are apparently all about numbers. Indeed I am aware we contribute to that, but I expected they see us beyond. These people we work so hard for are just valued for the numbers they bring. This isn’t even close to what I expected from all the things we have been working on since the revamp. Indeed, reality sucks.
Let me drop a quick bomb as I start this entry: Almost a year after I signed up to the Reps program, I quit.
Here’s the thing— First, I am an industrial engineering student (not in the computer/ IT studies) and I was the only girl.
When I joined the Reps program, my only Mozilla-related experience was using Firefox as my primary browser ever since. I didn’t know that there is a community and you can contribute to the organization. Back then, I was involved with a university-wide organization so I have a pretty solid experience and network to run student-targeted events. So in my first year as a Rep I just organized Mozilla presence at events, by myself.
In that year though, unknown to me, the MozillaPH Community has already been formed and is starting to gain momentum. The early members back then was of course, searching for those listed as Mozilla Reps from the Philippines. I also joined the mailing list so I’ve been reading what’s been going on, but I never participated and I almost never interacted with them. I never attended meet-ups because other than the locations are far from where I live it also primarily because… they were all men.
As it is a trending topic at my Mozilla channels lately and with the Whistler Workweek buzzing with ‘going into space’, I thought it is just so timely to express my thoughts on participation. Participation-wise, here’s what I think we should really put a spotlight on: our young contributors. Okay I may be biased because I am with the Firefox Student Ambassadors team (LOL), but I’ve been actively involved with it for a reason. I believe that helping our young contributors grow with Mozilla is a way of investing on the organization’s future. I strongly believe that taking actions now to engage and develop them as the next leaders is a way of securing the opportunities that may come up in the future.
Empowering the youth as they are obviously ‘the world’s future’ may sound cliche, but I think by this time generations have proven that indeed, to have a more proactive and involved citizens you must nurture them when they’re young, during the time that they are still a sponge absorbing everything and still forming their own values. Same goes for Mozilla. I believe that by sharing our mission, the relevance of what we do and providing them opportunities to do something, we can have long-term contributors, who not just help improve the organization but also pass on what they have learned from their rich experiences with Mozilla.
Perhaps the Mozilla Philippines Community is one of those communities who witnessed the power of empowered young people. Most of our volunteers are either still students or young professionals. We have witnessed great transformations from being a shy volunteer to assuming a big sister/ brother role as a facilitator of our FSA Leaders Camp. We have Reps who started as Student Reps/ FSAs and come to think of it, I was a student when I joined the Reps program. Mozilla fascinated me years back and now I have set the Mozilla values as my own.
Alright great, exploring the youth’s potential looks like a promising strategy, now what?
I think we have two problems though, young people tend to be shy… and underrated. In some places it might be the seniority culture and for some, maybe we’re just not inclusive for them.
I saw a lot of people going to Japan lately and I saw a lot more wondering why there’s a sudden boom of Japan visits for the past months, comparing how it is like going to Hong Kong now (HK is one of the most popular tourist destinations of Filipinos, I think because it is the nearest country with a cold weather, without any visa requirements).
Here’s another post where I will apologize for the lack of posts, which come to think of it, who am I even apologizing to? Well, perhaps I need to apologize to the one sponsoring my domain? :p Maybe I can blog more this 2015. Hey, I’m still torn between keeping my personal life private and blogging about my thoughts.
Anyway, this post should be about 2014, the year that was.
When asked about 2014, this one word immediately pops in my mind– uneventful. Pretty odd for me to say.
This was written starting on my flight home to MNL then continued at different places (i.e. public transpo, on my table etc. lol)
I am writing this while on the plane and sort of experiencing a turbulent flight but interestingly the seatbelt sign is still not on. And at last, I had a meal that actually has taste (very tasty roast beef, bell pepper, sauce, onions and more pepper comparable to our local beef steak) after four days of eating bland food.
The topic of how I developed a picky attitude over British food though is not what I intend to write in this 15-hr trip, because hey, the fish and chips I had was nice.
I am flying back home from the city that has a special place in my heart (nope that is not because of my MozFest crush but well, ok yes it is a factor lol) because it is the venue of my awesome weekend with people that I admire and most importantly, people that keep on inspiring me. The wonderful, most anticipated Mozilla event every year that is MozFest.
Last year I came to this event to participate. My goal was to learn from people globally and bring home with me ideas (and community gossip, yes) that our community can make use of. Most importantly, it gave me an idea that served as the opportunity to make a dream of mine come true. That dream was to spearhead the first, biggest public-facing event for the Mozilla Philippines Community. It is a little dream, yes. But at least it is a dream that actually happened, all because of how this event showed me that it can.
This year I challenged myself. I want to be part of the group that leads the generation of new ideas at MozFest. Wow much high level such words wow.
I am now here at MozFest as a community builder. I used to be a student leader back in college and I still have this liking for it (guess it is really hard to get over this student-to-workforce transition) so I proposed a session at MozFest where we talk about how students can get into this opportunity to become young leaders of Mozilla communities. And because I am part of the FSA Eboard lol I am biased! :-p
I usually say that declaring yourself as ‘busy’ means you are not accomplishing anything and is not very good at managing your time. But well, I’ve been doing a lot of things that I can’t find the peace of mind to blog about what’s been happening!